The first trimester

Posted by beritas
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Let me start this post by clarifying something, as to avoid missunderstandings: i am super happy to be pregnant! i'm sooo looking forward to have a child, to nurture it and love it and become a better person because of that child. 

Having said that, let's be honest: being pregnant sucks! I have had the worst 14 weeks of my life! A long time ago i had a very bad emergency operation with a lot of complications and i had to stay in the hospital for almost a month... well, i can honestly tell you, that i don't know which experience was worst. I had almost all side effects of pregnancy multiplied by 1000... am i exaggerating? maybe... but it was really bad.

  • Fatigue: for about 2 months my day consisted of waking up (around 10), eating, doggy walking, napping (for about 3 hours), eating, doggy walking, spending some time with the hubs and going to sleep (around 9)... the worst part? i kept feeling sooo tired all the time!
  • Pain: in the first months all the ligaments in your pelvis start to soften, as to give the baby enough space to grow. Sometimes they soften too much and that's not good... it hurts... a lot! I also had a hyperstimulation of both ovaries (because of the IVF), so i had a huge belly from the beginning because my ovaries were more than 10 cm in diameter! That is more than twice the normal size! They gradually returned to normality, but it took a lot of time and actually the right one is still a tiny bit bigger than normal. All this makes your abdomen super sensitive to touch and you have to be super careful not to turn too quick to either side. It's very painful.
  • Hunger: I am (because i still am...) hungry ALL THE TIME! I eat around 6 to 7 small portions during the day and i still go to bed AND wake up in the middle of the night feeling famished...
  • Digestive problems: One of the most common side effects and it brings a variety of problems, which i have had ALL in the first 2 months of pregnancy... not fun!
  • Headaches: i suffer from migrane once in a while and i have learned to live with it, but! taking painkillers during pregnancy is really not recommended, mostly because you don't know what effects it could have on the baby, since most of these drugs have not been tested on pregnant women. The only ones that can be taken without much concern (but obviously still not in big quantity) are Aspirin and Paracetamol. I have a very high tolerance for pain and medication and these two don't even tickle my brain... I have taken Ibuprofen, but i still try not to.
  • Weak bladder: I had to go to the bathroom more that 10 times a day! And that's only during the day! I got up at least 2 to 3 times more during the night!
  • But the mother of all my problems was NAUSEA: OMG! i felt nauseated the whole day!!! it was really, really bad! the worst part? i did not puke... i don't like vomiting, but i think that in doing so you have at least a feeling of release... specially if you run to the bathroom about 5 times a day because you really think you're going to puke and nothing happens! well yes, you spit out a lot of saliva, your heart pumps like crazy, you have a hard time breathing, but other than that you just stand there and gag...

I'm sorry if all of this is disgusting to you, but it is the truth, that is how life works! I do believe that many women (including me) have this romantic idea of life, of how pregnancy is this happy, prefect, rainbow filled time where everything is beautiful and IT'S NOT! At least not for everybody, at least not all the time, specially in the beginning. All we think about is having a baby, but we don't realize all the changes that our bodies go through and sometimes it's really tough. For me, the first trimester was living hell! I was very depressed and felt just exhausted of being sick all the time!

That's why i started by stating that i'm happy to be pregnant because of course it's true! i just wish i would have known more about the whole process, about how a slight disfunction of hormones can make you a whole different person! Now i'm in week 17, so i have survived most of it. I still have some pain because of the growing uterus and problems with my pelvis, i'm still tired because of an iron deficiency and a very very low blood pressure (90/50, normal is around 120/80) and i still have nausea :-( luckily it's not all the time anymore, but i still feel it at least once a day. 

The thing is, the moment you look at the screen of the ultrasound and for the first time you see your baby's legs kicking around, it's fingers flexing and touching it's face, it's tiny heart beating... in that moment your own heart just explodes! It's in that moment when you realize that everything, EVERYTHING you are going through is worth it... all the pain, all the discomfort... it all just doesn't matter anymore, because inside of you a new life is growing.



DIY: Sewn Origami Paper Cards

Posted by beritas

So, today i want to finally show you my birthday cards for september... i know, it was like ages ago, right...


You don't necessarily need origami paper, you could as well use whatever kind of paper with a nice pattern or color. If you don't have motive punchers, you coud just cut out forms, but these punchers really do the job pretty fast and easy. 


Lay out your origami in however form you want and i would recomend to glue it to your card. As you see my thread does not go through all the pieces. I used it more for decoration than to actually hold the pieces on the card. Then just stamp, write, paint your message and you're done!

paste origami to card sew origami to card stamp your message

Glueing every piece to the card was very time consuming, but apart from that, these cards are very easy to make and they look cute :-) Remember to save at least one piece for your envelope!

Sewn Origami Card

These were the last set of cards i have done and i apologize to my october friends, because i didn't send any :-( i promise to send you pretty cards next year! I have not done any cards for november or december either and i'm not sure if i'm going to because I have a lot to do right now and i haven't told you this, but we are spending the whole month of december in Mexico visiting my family! 

But this is not the end of DIY since we have been doing a lot of stuff lately, which i will hopefully be showing you in the next weeks.

I wish you all a happy tuesday!



Movie Review: Halloween Edition

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I know Halloween was already so long ago... but since i didn't do anything special this year, i thought i might share with you our movie pics for that night.

  • The Classic: Freaks. Yes, yes, we have all been watching American Horror Story Freak Show, but unlike in Freak Show, ALL the "freaks" in this 1932's movie are real! I read that it even was banned in some countries because it disturbed the audience. The story is quite simple: Hans, a midget, falls in love with the beautiful Cleopatra, who only wants his money. Together with her lover Hercules, they plan to get rid of Hans once she marries him, but they did not count on the other "freaks" and their resolution to help and avenge their friend.


  • The Contemporary: Afflicted. Shaky cam, yeah! It's actually not that bad. Two friends decide to travel the world, documenting everything and putting it online for all to see... remember when this kind of movies where "found footage"? I would not call it "Unique and original" (not like in the trailer), but it's ok... decent horror movie. Although the end is very cool, but then you start to ask yourself: aha! and the policemen? ;-)


  • The Trash: Hobo with a Shotgun. Yes, there is actually a movie called like that and guess who's in it? no? Rutger Hauer a.k.a. Roy "Time to die" Batty!!! But don't be fooled! This movie is gory, trashy, it has awful music and sometimes you feel like going blind from all the colors BUT it has a message: Don't close your eyes to violence, corruption and injustice! It's your choice not to be part of it.  

Yes, we watched that...

I wish you all a nice weekend!


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I'm back! well, hopefully... but believe me, i have a very good reason for being absent for so long.

Most of you already know this, but for those who don't: We're having a baby! 

The IVF treatment worked and we couldn't be happier!

But let me tell you, these last 3 months have been hell! I'll be sharing all about the ups and downs of early pregnancy on another post. Right now i'm still not quite all there, so i leave you with a couple of shots of what has happened in my life these past months :-)

We went to the Altmühltal Natural Preserve with Raul's work colleagues. I remember having very bad nausea and hip pain, but we made the best out of it and it turned out to be a very nice day.

Altmühltal 1

Altmühltal 2 Altmühltal 3

Altmühltal 4 Altmühltal 5Lola at Altmühltal

Altmühltal 6 Altmühltal 7 

We visited the twins and i even helped feeding them ;-) They are huge!!!

Twin 1 Twin 2

Feeding the twins

My brother and his girlfriend came to visit us and we went to the Oktoberfest. Let me tell you: not being able to drink anything at the Oktoberfest is not fun! specially if you have to wait in line with a lot of drunk girls who think you don't notice that they are cutting in line to go to the bathroom :-/

Oktoberfest with my brother and his girlfriend

We went to Raul's cousin's wedding! It was sooo beautiful! But i'm glad the party was at a hotel and a couple of our friends had rooms booked, because i got really really tired and was able to sleep for a couple of hours while everybody else partied ;-)

Wedding 1

Wedding 2 Wedding cakesWedding 3 Wedding 4

We celebrated Raul's grandparent's 60th wedding anniversary! 60 years! can you imagine that? We made them a very cute card with the good news that they are going to be great grandparents for the 2nd time ;-) 

60th Anniversary Family

This year's halloween celebration was a little bit more simpler than our last years. I'm still not quite over the whole nausea thing, so it's not been easy to plan big events, nor to cook, or bake, or do anything for that matter... but we had cute costumes :-D

Halloween costumes

We didn't even celebrate Día de Muertos this year :-( but every day is better than the last and i'm trying really hard to "come back to life", trying to distract myself and start doing things again.

I promise to try to write regularly again! I really have A LOT to share with you! but right now i need a nap ;-)



I want Candy!

Posted by beritas

Hello there! 

I don't know if i have told you this, but i'm very fortunate to know a lot of awesomely talented people. Today i want to present you a super cool band called Candy and i'm not saying this because i know them ;-) but they make really good music.

I absolutely love their first CD...

... and i'm so looking forward to finally get my hands on the second one! 

But to make their 3rd record they need our help! In order to do so, go to this link (scroll to the bottom of the page for the english version!) and choose how much you would like to donate. For every amount there is a cool compensation!

If you're not interested, or don't want to donate anything, then i kindly ask you to share this project anyway, maybe some of your friends might be interested ;-)

Come on people! let's support these young, talented, good looking guys and girl!